memories.... might be beautiful and yet....

i feel like writing something but i don't know what to write about. was browsing some magnets just now... pretty ones.. with nice messages with esh just now, and i remembered saying "hey i wanna blog this..." but i can't remember what was the message.

is my memory getting so bad? alzheimer's. that's it.

it's a wonder how some people can manage to remember the slightest stuff about anything. it's as if, they have a photocopier in their mind. or a scanner. like, "oh remember when i first saw you, your said blah blah blah..." you know. or... what a person wore, mannerisms, or even what they like, and what they don't. or... "hey i've seen this person before... when i was in sec school.. during some camp..." haah. not like they will remember you, but it's just how some people have this kind of memory.

we usually have selective memory... meaning we choose what we want to remember, and what not to. but somehow, u just can't seem to control what u want to remember, and what u want to forget. like the horrifying experiences u had during exams, or... embarassing moments.

but i guess, u only remember those moments which really mattered to you. which hit you real hard. which changed ur life.

k... my thoughts are stuck. they aren't flowing. so this is as much as i can write on a cool night like this... which i should be sleeping cos i have to wake up at 6am for work. k i shall be an obedient girl. ( which i am already am..)

i wanna perform with esmee again. sigh.