have you experienced any days when you wake up and feel like you have no energy? and then you go back to sleep... and wake up, get some food, then go on the weighing scale and realised you have gained weight! then look at your bookself and realised that it's your job to get it tidied up, and goes on doing it, but you feel as if you have absolutely no life.

no goals

no zest.

isn't this equivalent to not existing at all?