of cortisol release.

was asked a question about this medical cause of obesity by a fellow course-mate who's really smart and of my sis's age.

then i realised that i haven't been able to recall what i've been studying and i need to refer to my notes. and so that stimulated my whole stress system and i can't seem to be able to continue studying ever since. and so i sit down, staring at my notes, and i flip.. and flip... and was thinking.. "what the hell. how to memorise everything?"

and now then i understand why uncle lee kept saying he will fail when he was the one who can remember a lot of stuff...

all these hormones. all information everywhere. each lecturer seems to put it in a different way. actually no. i just realised. ALL THE INFORMATION SCATTERED EVERYWHERE. i wanna make it all on ONE piece of paper.

like what i told my friend.. a grad entry med student..."welcome to the boat that's sinking"

and i thought i was a hopeless optimist. -sigh-

and yes i'm fine. after a sleep... when i wake up to sunshine.. i will be fine.