tired.. but life still has to go on...

yes i'm officially tired.

am i burnt out? i don't think so. how can one busy week tire me out so easily? i woke up early today to do the slides for GM tmr, then had to teach harold and then went over to meet the girls for o week auditions. then had a quick lunch and then went to help reid to set up the basement with other people for the halloween party later.

and after eddie's mini party last night, which occured after a full day in school with a urine prac and me putting my left hand in 2 warm water baths and then having my blood taken from the back of my hand, after a great dinner with weiyong, dezhen and his housemate at a really nice and cheap chinese eatery... after preparing for o week auditions... i am officially tired.

it's a really weird feeling.

like i wake up and i find myself not knowing what i can do to undo the mess. i look at my notes and i don't know where to start even though when weiyong revises stuff with me i can answer his questions...

but i feel empty. i took a nap just now, just to recharge for the night's acitivites... and i jumped out of bed remembering that i have to call eelin regarding o week auditions. and then, i immediately regretted jumping out. my head was spinning and spinning. maybe cos of the coffee i drank at lunch.

i teared. okays i'm a silly person with a weak will. i'm not as strong as i used to be. and i don't like it. but i guess if crying makes me feel a lot better emotionally, i guess i will do it. yes i lost my red adidas water bottle. and yes i'm sad. but that's just a materialistic thing, i can always use other bottles. :( sigh. i spend each night out of my room doing something else other than studying. and i'm sorry if i'm always not in my room to answer calls from my family :( yes stress levels do make one homesick. even weiyong dreamt about a SIA plane. ahha.

maybe i'm not managing my time as well as before.

but like weiyong says... i'll feel better tmr morning after a good rest..

i really hope so.

ok. finish whining already.