why do tears fall?

because u realised ur mistake, that u have done something wrong?

because you feel lost?

because of self-pity?

because you're weak?

because you cannot handle what's placed on your plate?

because of stress?

i miss the good ol' jiahui who stands tall in face of troubles. who never says never. who stays abreast of everything. who never crumbles. who never tears.

other than this stupid episode of feeling down again, i'm fine. i told my mum i need chicken essence. ;) to keep me sane while trying to remember so much information.

i have never been good with memory. and that's why i never memorise piano pieces for all these time of piano playing.

and when i see everyone around me getting so geared up... i am scared.
but i have to remember that i am not facing this alone.

and i have to learn how to let things go.