how right it is

that green is my colour for the year. O_o so much that i am seeing green and takes a lot of logic to see it through.

and so after 2 days of keeping my thoughts mainly to myself... i finally decided i should come out of the shell and spread my love around. and i should be frank and not delude myself anymore.

it will be tough to move on. especially when it's so hard to even accept reality. my resolve weakens and i falter. yet there are so many safety nets to catch me when i fall and i just have to keep on growing stronger each day...time to have other experiences and not to focus my life around his.

each time we say that what has happened hurts so many people around us... and not just us. but any logical person will know what's the best to do now... and being me, i need all the strength i need mentally. no more saying that i am tired of being strong... no more saying that i am tired of finding something else to do. what i can do now is to just keep going. i cannot stop. and i should not talk about the unfairness of the world..

what kind of emotional attachment have i gone through if it has brought out both the best and the worst in me? unhealthy? a good one? no point thinking about all these as a friend says.

so what have i gone through the past week? other than being emotional and feeling that my world is crashing down on me, i did have some fun :) my first clubbing experience in sg... (which affirms my resolve that i really don't like it) and my first pubbing experience in sg.. (which tells me that it's something i will do :) so grab me out for some lounging time!)

so friends out there... u know i need all the distractions i can get so do keep me in ur social calendar!!!

the sun better stay the way it is now for the day!