i've been hiding for quite some time now, with regards to my emo status. not wanting anyone to question more about what's happening, how i feel... always telling others that i'll be fine and is fine.
and since the build up of stress with cafe preparations, rights application for the IH musical... preparing for tests... basically just being away from the feelings that i've buried, not talking to him as much... and i guess, he has found someone else.
i dont know what to feel. sad i guess, cos tears come to my eyes whenever i think about the times we had. yet i know somehow that i have to get over it as there are many other things to do. much more to accomplish than before.
maybe now is really the time that i have to get used to the fact that he won't be calling me anymore to ask how i am; treating me extra nice in all things... running after me when i walk away... asking me out to movies... sharing thoughts...
because after all these anger, shock, denial and guilt ... i should have a proper closure.
no point running away from my problems by filling up my time with other committments. time to face it squarely.
and i'll appreciate if no one asks me talk about it :) instead, talk to me about what i can do! hehe like the 100 cookies i need to bake for the hungry ones living above me.. and delivering my stewed pork belly to the hungry ones in N201 ;)
i'll be fine. but now and then i might need that shoulder to lean on. who will be my shoulder when you graduate yy?
Post-Nepal
13 years ago
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I'll be!! -serene.s-
omg.. do i qualify as a hungry one upstairs? *score*
yeah... breaking up is hard to do... believe me, i totally know how you feel.
keeping insanely busy has been my formula, but sometimes it backfires when you feel utterly stressed and it all comes tumbling down on you [the.. "AAARRGGHHH i can't take the world and there's noone to console me" feeling] i don't really know if it works. :S
Friends are more of a blessing than we give them credit. So just get a friendly hug and rant and rave 'cos you know in the end they'll forgive you for being such a whiner.
Big *HuGz* ... you're not alone =)
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