the song in the musical that tugs at my heartstrings

This is a song which i delight very much in singing along with Dhivia when I teach her... it's part of the upcoming IH musical... the goodbye girl.

it's like a song that describes how i feel at times... it's so lovely. i can give u a preview... lol anyone interested? COME WATCH THE MUSICAL!!!!!!!!!!!!

"How can I win?"
how can I learn to trust enough
and to stop believing all I hear are lies
Open my heart but just enough
to keep an open mind
But never close my eyes
To the dangers I alert myself
Making efforts to assert myself
And discovering ways to hurt myself
That no one else has tried
How can I win if I'm not on my side

How can i dare to feel again
if I can't let go of past mistakes I've made
Living through each ordeal again
The faith that I misplaced
The price I overpaid
I've been able to endure enough
But I must not want the cure enough
I get back on my feet and sure enough
My hopes and fears collide
How can I win if I'm not on my side

I live each day like my emotions are at war
But I don't remember anymore
Just who or what I'm fighting for

when will delight be mine again?
Will it come or can it be that it's too late?
I want the sun to shine again
But I must walk away from the shadows I create
And though I tell myself it's safer just to hide
How can I win if I keep retreating
Cheating myself is self defeating
How can I win if I'm not on my side