this week has been .. weird? ok.. it's only tuesday..but it feels as if it's like thurs/fri.

it's my last week at the music school at stirling road. sigh.

it's a low week... last week was a high week.. everyday looking forward to planning stuff for me and my mum... going for walks... swimming... jogging... cooking.. eating well... sleeping well.. then this week has been low...

like yesterday... came home after the huge storm in the late morning.. e balcony was wet, and i just had to clean it up and make it dry.. so i took a mop and a rag... and starting wiping and drying the floor, the shoe rack... and then suddenly i felt like i have no more energy left. giddy. arms no strength.. thought it's glucose level low... so popped in a slice of ritter sport. :) no it wasn't an excuse to eat chocs.. i realy felt unwell. then went over to meet my mum and sis for lunch.. and after that it was better... and met up with mag to "scout" for medical text.. went to yun nan bookshop at bras brasah and then to Researchbooks at goldhill centre which is opposite novena square...

today.... went to e polyclinic to look for elizabeth to get my referral letter from her... then met up with liyann for lunch before i went down to my student's place at bedok to teach her... came home to cook dinner... fried rice and hot & sour soup.. :) anyways...

i just felt like i'm trying to be hyper. like.. be happy and stuff... cos i really have nothing to be upset about.. life's normal.. nothing's bad... i'm just feeling down for no reason and i know i shouldn't be feeling this way so i have to gather up the energy and be cheerful and happy and optimistic!

i'm doing that cos i don't want to be complaining about my life.. i don't want to be irritated easily.. nor do i want to be negative about anything! i want to be a positive person! why? cos if everyone's complaining and ranting about how bad their life is... then who will be there to see the good in life?

but then i know it's not really me. whatever people tell me.. and if it opposes my view... sometimes i just give a damn neutral answer or if i can find a tactful way of presenting my opinion.. then i'll say it. if not, i won't... and i'll just let them do whatever they like... for example if someone tells me that he/she wants to wear sleeveless top to a damn cold place... i'll just keep my mouth shut and say "as long as u feel comfortable in it".. k that's not really relevant.

what's happening to me!

i think i need sleep. i'll be fine.